“Learning to live in the present moment is part of the path of joy.”
~Sarah Ban Breathnach

I believe this.
Living in the past is something far too many people do. You cannot grow if you like your past you more than the present. What sort of life can you have if what has been is always better, in your mind, than what is?

And if you’re always looking toward the future, always counting on how things will be once this or that or the other thing happens… if what you want to be or plan to do is better than what you are or what you’re doing… how happy can you possibly be? Sure, you might be happy if your future dreams come true but what if they disappoint?

This is now. This is who I am now. If I can’t be happy with that I need to change it NOW instead of living in the past or dreaming of a future that may or may not pan out.

I think this is so predominant in my thougths because of the waiting games we’re playing with the house/move and with my dad’s health. I am so incredibly focused on living my present life in a way that makes me and my family happy that it’s very, very hard to wait on someone else’s decisions to determine what we can and will do. I’m goin’ a little crazy with the waiting. Don’t want to do much of anything cuz I don’t want to waste energy and time if I just have to redo it in a different way a day or a week from now.

Blah.

I feel like my brain is a big old pot of soup, simmering away, and I can’t reach the knob to turn it down so the taters don’t turn to mush.

I’ll be damned glad when things get taken care of by those who need to take care of them so that *I* can get back to taking care of my own crap!

Having my future hinge on someone else really fucks with my present and I don’t like it a bit. :)