So I was cruising around FetLife, looking for something to inspire a rant or some deep thought or…  whatever.  Cuz, yanno, life in the Taylor y puss casa has been damned quiet and normal and uneventful for a damned long time.  (For those who may not know, puss = me.  Taylor calls me puss)  And [...]

(Were you humming along with the title?  I was.)
Taylor and I were talkin’ this morning.  I was telling him about a blog I read and how I used to get all insecure when I read it, like I wasn’t doing it as “right” as this person was.  How even when they had struggles it was [...]

Every time I know we’re going to a play party I get in this mild sort of panic all day.
I’m not certain panic is the right word.
I get nervous and apprehensive and excited.  I start to wonder – and want to know - what Taylor has planned, what he’s going to do to me.
Often I’ll ask [...]

So after a Teen free week, life is back to normal.
Back to grabbing a robe before I get up to make coffee.  Back to tucking the princess satchel back into my room rather than leaving it out.  Back to not forgetting to put the toys away when I’m done with them.  And back to no [...]

Bunch of stuff in my noggin’ that’s giving me a headache cuz it’s all tangled up in a crazy knot and won’t untwist…
So you’ll have to forgive my rambling today.
Somebody on a forum I frequent asked a question about sexuality and how it relates to nudity and if being comfortable nude and loving your body [...]

Attention.
We all want some sometimes.
Some of us want more than others.
You know the type.  Attention whores.  
Everything they do is done to garner attention.
It’s another thing I just don’t get.
Now I’m not going to say I never look for attention.  We all do.
Blogging itself is an attention seeking behavior.  We put our lives, our pictures, [...]

So I just ranted about this less than two months ago but I feel the need to revisit.
Insult.  Injury. Offense.
Stop it already!
Is it because we are so connected to so many people over the internet?  Because we converse with people we’d never meet at all in our daily lives?  Because we read so much, from so [...]

I”m not much of a fan of morning sex.
Don’t get me wrong.  Every time we have morning sex, I’m in heaven all day.  I just loahte waking up.  I don’t wake up well.  Someone touching me when I’m waking up makes me want to kill them; stab them right thru the eye with the closest [...]

Bunch of hooplah over on FetLife.  What’s new, right?  
I’m extremely stressed out over the constant slavier-than-thou bullshit I see all over the place.
I’m not a fucking slave, god damn it.  I don’t have to behave the way you do, the way the folks in Laura Antoniou’s books do or the way Master Meatmeister said a [...]

So I was sitting here, all curled up with some coffee and a book, when it hit me.  I’d just posted on Twitter about being old, boring and comfy.  And I am.  Perhaps too much so.
I don’t have any anxiety or spirit or even much anger these days.  I’m just settled and contented and logical [...]

I am so tired and yet I can’t sleep.  Or maybe I just don’t want to go to bed yet since Taylor shows no signs of being tired.  Or maybe my brain just won’t shut down for the night.
Regardless, it’s two in the morning and I just made a cup of coffee and sugared it [...]

Lots of posts over on FetLife today about Ownership vs Mastery.
Personally I tend to use the words interchangeably.  Sort of.  I don’t use Master or slave in reference to me and Taylor but I do view the two dynamics (Owner/property and Master/slave) as being on the same level.
And before anyone gets in a twist I [...]

The question was asked on a FetLife group today “What skills (attitudes, attributes) does it take to effectively submit?”
My brain stumbled for a minute and the only thing I could come up with was that it doesn’t necessarily take any skills to submit, just the desire to do so.
For me, this is true.
Certain skills and [...]

That the English language has gone to hell and people define words more by the way they feel about those words than by their actual meaning.
“I believe rape means…”
“I believe slave means…”
“I believe masochism means…”
Gah.
Shut the fuck up.
Words have real, actual, recorded, agreed upon by a higher power definitions .
My color blind buddy believes my [...]

I’ve got a gazillion things in my head and nothing that really wants to come out.  I hate when that happens.
Taylor’s been making noises lately about including other people in our play.  Like…  sexually.  He’s using those ever powerful words he’s so good at to hammer me, every time we fuck or play, with my [...]

What needs to be understood here, is the fact that from day one, I have done what’s best for my family. Even though what I want, what I decide, what makes me happy is the priority for those in my home, I put the good of my family first.
This is what has allowed us the [...]

Cruelty:
1. A cruel act; a deliberate infliction of pain and suffering
2 Extreme heartlessness
3 An indifference to suffering
4 brutality, merciless, ruthless, heartless, harsh, mean, pitiless
If I have a fetish, this is it.
Cruelty.
This is what I get off on.
Sublime moments of cruelty and abuse. (And, no, I don’t mean abuse in the social services sort of way. [...]

Yeah. Regarding my post yesterday.
Did y’all know I’m getting seriously slammed over at Blood, Sweat, Tears?  (Go ahead, check it out. I know you’re gonna.) It’s a shame, too, cuz the girl liked me right up until yesterday.
Seems the fact that I’d send Teen to his dad rather than leave if shit got iffy around [...]

“Man is the only animal whose desires increase as they are fed; the only animal that is never satisfied.” ~Henry George
I was thinking, after a conversation with someone yesterday…
In a lot of D/s relationships the submissive is restricted from having an orgasm withour permission or without certain parameters having been met. And while [...]