So I was cruising around FetLife, looking for something to inspire a rant or some deep thought or…  whatever.  Cuz, yanno, life in the Taylor y puss casa has been damned quiet and normal and uneventful for a damned long time.  (For those who may not know, puss = me.  Taylor calls me puss)  And [...]

It always strikes me as odd, how the mind works.
The way it wanders and skips from one thought to the next.
I mean, last night, I was out on the balcony, looking out at the yard after having spent some time on Facebook.  I was thinking about how I’m not sure what my feelings are about [...]

(Were you humming along with the title?  I was.)
Taylor and I were talkin’ this morning.  I was telling him about a blog I read and how I used to get all insecure when I read it, like I wasn’t doing it as “right” as this person was.  How even when they had struggles it was [...]

Not a whole lot going on over here.
It’s Spring so it’s raining and gloomy far more often than it’s sunny and bright.  And to think I used to like Spring best.  Is it me or has it changed?  May feels more like March used to.  *le sigh*
Remind me to take my vitamin D since it [...]

“Being blunt with your feelings is very American. In this big country, I can be as brash as New York, as hedonistic as Los Angeles, as sensuous as San Francisco, as brainy as Boston, as proper as Philadelphia, as brawny as Chicago, as warm as Palm Springs, as friendly as my adopted home town of [...]

“Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life; and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own [...]

“A leaf fluttered in through the window this morning, as if supported by the rays of the sun, a bird settled on the fire escape, joy in the task of coffee, joy accompanied me as I walked.” ~Anais Nin
I touched on this in my 360° blog but thought it deserved a bit more attention…
There is [...]

“One need not be a chamber to be haunted;One need not be a house;The brain has corridors surpassingMaterial place.”~Emily Dickinson
I try to live each day as if the future doesn’t hold anything terrifying…to push the fear to the back of my mind, refusing to let it rule my days, ruining what may be the only [...]

“Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts.” ~Penelope Sweet
So I woke up this morning bawling like a baby, ready to crawl into a hole and just die.
Don’t know what’s with me lately. I’ve never been depressed before but I’m starting to think that I am SERIOUSLY depressed now. (Yeah, I’ve been [...]

“If a man is offered a fact which goes against his instincts, he will scrutinize it closely, and unless the evidence is overwhelming, he will refuse to believe it. If, on the other hand, he is offered something which affords a reason for acting in accordance to his instincts, he will accept it even on [...]

So…okay…Call me petty and selfish but I swear to GOD I’m going to start hiding the portions of things that I expect to get, regardless of what it is.I bought a pound of potato salad today because I had a craving for sammiches on kaiser rolls and potato salad.I got two TEASPOONS of the potato [...]

I don’t really do resolutions, per se. I set goals. Ponder things I’d like to do or change. Resolutions seem too firm and, despite being all firm and solid and “resolute” no one seems to keep them – myself included. Goals, on the other hand, are sorta squishy. Nothing that has to be done, so [...]

Well…It’s that time of year again.Cold outside, everything frozen, people rushing from their cars to wherever they need to go…The longest day of the year over and the promise of more light just ahead of us…Christmas and my birthday right around the corner…A new year to begin soon…
And life is really good.Taylor’s workin’ steady at [...]

(Wrote this a few days ago on the ibook and have just now gotten around to plugging it in to the modem to post it)
So, lately, I’ve been giving a lot of thought to expectations – just in general, really, but specifically the expectations we have of others. Because, face it, we all have expectations. [...]

The Journeyby Mary Oliver
One day you finally knewwhat you had to do, and began,though the voices around youkept shoutingtheir bad advice –though the whole housebegan to trembleand you felt the old tug at your ankles.“Mend my life!”each voice cried.But you didn’t stop.You knew what you had to do,though the wind priedwith its stiff fingersat the [...]

“We will get more out of life if we learn to enjoy who we are, aspire to be the best we can be, and accept that we often fall short of what we wish. Accepting our shortcomings does not mean complacency and a lack of desire to change. It does mean living with reality. ” [...]

“Learning to live in the present moment is part of the path of joy.”~Sarah Ban Breathnach
I believe this.Living in the past is something far too many people do. You cannot grow if you like your past you more than the present. What sort of life can you have if what has been is always better, [...]

“We are like sculptors, constantly carving out of others the image we long for, need, love or desire, often against reality, against their benefit, and always, in the end, a disappointment, because it does not fit them.” ~Anais Nin
To not do this is one of my talents. I may wander thru life bumping into walls [...]

“You choose to go voluntarily into the fire. The blaze might destroy you. But if you survive, every blow of the hammer will serve to shape your being. Every drop of water wrung from you will temper and strengthen your soul.” ~Margaret Weis
I believe this.I believe that everything that happens – every thing – enables [...]

“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things only hoped for.” ~Epicurus
I think, sometimes, this is what people most forget…
We tend to want everything – every want, need and desire to be met all at the same time. We [...]

“People drain me, even the closest of friends, and I find loneliness to be the best state in the union to live in.” ~Margaret Cho, weblog
I have had one room-mate and been married twice. Until I met Taylor I truly felt I was incapable of living with anyone other than my son. But Taylor and [...]

“Joy and sorrow are inseparable. Together they come and when one sits alone with you, remember the other one is asleep upon your bed.” ~Kahlil Gibran
Yanno…Sometimes things just go really, really right.And I’ll admit it’s a little scary when suddenly EVERYTHING seems to be going right.particularly when you’re coming off a phase where absolutely everything [...]

“Indecency, vulgarity, obscenity – these are strictly confined to man; he invented them. Among the higher animals there is no trace of them. They hide nothing; they are not ashamed. Man, with his soiled mind, covers himself. Man is the Animal that Blushes. He is the only one that does it – or has occasion [...]

“When dealing with people, let us remember we are not dealing with creatures of logic. We are dealing with creatures of emotion, creatures bustling with prejudices and motivated by pride and vanitY” ~Dale Carnegie
Well…I’d say we’re creaures of logic.When it suits us.But, as a whole, I guess humans are far more apt to be ruled [...]

“I know of no more disagreeable situation than to be left feeling generally angry without anybody in particular to be angry at” ~Frank Moore Colby
Today I watched a group of twenty or so kids at a bus stop do nothing while two boys beat someone up.
I”ve seen my share of fights. Hell, I’ve been in [...]