So I log in to FetLife today – which I no longer do each and every day cuz I’m flippin’ busy, man – and the first things I see on my front page? “People who think dog rape is a-ok” and “Another day, another shoot at Kink”. Wandering over to my groups I found “Is [...]

Bunch of hooplah over on FetLife.  What’s new, right?   I’m extremely stressed out over the constant slavier-than-thou bullshit I see all over the place. I’m not a fucking slave, god damn it.  I don’t have to behave the way you do, the way the folks in Laura Antoniou’s books do or the way Master Meatmeister [...]

It’s odd. Taylor and I are together almost 24/7 in the winter.  Work is dependant upon the weather and, while the hours are long and hard when there is work, there’s not a whole lot of work. So not only are we in each other’s laps day in and day out but we’re usually even [...]

This morning found me screaming, screeching, whining and crying at Taylor about how tired I am of nobody giving a shit about me. I sounded like a teenage drama queen. I don’t know if it’s cuz I’m sick and have been varying degrees of sick for two weeks and have been taking care of a [...]

Review Let’s talk about kegels, shall we?  You know, those wonderful little squeezing exercises we do to keep our pussy tight and our bladder from leaking when we sneeze?  Yeah.  Those. I’ve been having a hell of a time with them in the last couple years.  I find myself not being able to squeeze as [...]

So. You know that fantasy so many of us have about being beaten (or spanked), fucked and walked away from like it was nothing more than a coffee break?  Like we’re just a pocket pussy, a toy to get him off and when he’s done we may as well not exist?  Or something of that [...]

Good goddess.  I’ve had this thing open all day, intending to write something, and I’ve just been all preoccupied with other stuff. I was over at Del.icio.us adding links when I realized more than half my damned links to people were FEED links instead of SITE links.  So I had to edit two hundred or [...]

So I was sitting here, all curled up with some coffee and a book, when it hit me.  I’d just posted on Twitter about being old, boring and comfy.  And I am.  Perhaps too much so. I don’t have any anxiety or spirit or even much anger these days.  I’m just settled and contented and [...]

My thyroid is whacked. Sure, we already knew that.  But after almost four months of taking the levothyroxin my numbers still suck. My T3 and T4 (for those who know what this stuff means) are pretty much okay.  But my TSH is 14.8 (the "normal" being considered below 5 for most labs, the "optimal" being [...]

The thyroid med got upped and I’m already starting to feel a bit more energetic so that’s a good thing.   The abnormal cells aren’t cancer but need to be watched so I’m in for 6 month paps for the next couple years.   The lump is going to be rechecked in six months for [...]

…some more.  Blah.  So I saw the general surgeon about the lump.  She says…  it’s a lump in the fatty tissue.  No idea what it is.  It just barely shows up on the CT scan and it hasn’t grown since I first noticed it like a year ago so she wants to either see me [...]

“Where ya been?” I know.  I’ve been quiet.  Lots going on and nothing going on, all at the same time. Mostly I’ve just been not in the mood to write about shit.  You know when you don’t really want to talk about what’s going on in your life but can’t find any trivial or non [...]

I’ve got a gazillion things in my head and nothing that really wants to come out.  I hate when that happens. Taylor’s been making noises lately about including other people in our play.  Like…  sexually.  He’s using those ever powerful words he’s so good at to hammer me, every time we fuck or play, with [...]

I’m having a bit of a meltdown. I’ve spent the past week doing more weeping and blubbering and feeling like shit than I can remember doing in a very long time. Part of it is hormones, I’m sure. It’s probably in the realm of TMI so I won’t go into details but the perimenopause stuff [...]