Fear and Desire – Desire for Fear?

October 19, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“…look at the way she trembles, even now, caught between fear and desire.” ~Delauney, “Kushiel’s Dart” Fear…It’s such a huge part of the “play” of BDSM, such a huge and integral – for me – part of the power games we play. (Not that the power dynamic is a game. In daily life it is

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"She seemed so in charge of her life, but he coul…

October 16, 2005 By In BDSM 1 Comment

“She seemed so in charge of her life, but he could see this tender person inside, holding up a sign saying “won’t someone come and take care of me?” She walked into holes and cars, couldn’t keep a napkin on her lap. She phrased her words in such a complex way, he had to pay

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Jonesin’

October 15, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“We dance their dance, let them speak thru out bodies, lose ourselves in their nature, and come up swallowing water as we drown under the waves of energy. We die and are reborn in a frenzy of ecstatic rites.” ~Yasmine Galenorn Conveys a lot of intensity, eh? I’ve almost been there. I’ve been on the

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Just a quote today

October 15, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“Being your slave, what should I do but tend upon the hours and times of your desire? I have no precious time at all to spend, nor services to do, till you require. Nor dare I chide the world-without-end hour whilst I, my sovereign, watch the clock for you, nor think the bitterness of absence

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…a World you Beheld in a Dream

October 4, 2005 By In BDSM 3 Comments

“Her home is the filthy room in the basement; kept locked and shuttered from the rest of the sun-loving, fresh air breathing, masses of envious onlookers who are afraid of the decadence housed within” ~Taylor I miss this man.It hit me today that the vanilla world has intruded terribly upon our relationship. The past year

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I’m on a happiness kick today :)

September 30, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“That is what marriage really means: helping one another to reach the full status of being persons, responsible and autonomous beings who do not run away from life.” ~Paul Tournier We may not be married but I’d like to think, if I/our relationship has done anything for Taylor, it would be this. He’s also done

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Belief, Faith, Trust and the Casualties of Lies

September 29, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

Yeah..Obviously I’m still fretting over the whole Lied To situation of a couple weeks ago. That’s the problem with lies… even if you forgive someone you can’t really get it out of your mind as easily. “The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget.” ~Thomas

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More, more, more!

September 29, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“Man is the only animal whose desires increase as they are fed; the only animal that is never satisfied.” ~Henry George I was thinking, after a conversation with someone yesterday… In a lot of D/s relationships the submissive is restricted from having an orgasm withour permission or without certain parameters having been met. And while

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Ambiguity – Delicious or Foul?

September 28, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is not about knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity.” ~Gilda Radner am·bi·gu·i·ty (?m’b?-gy?’?-t?) pronunciationn., pl. -ties. 1. Doubtfulness or uncertainty as regards interpretation. 2. Something

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Shadows

September 22, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“…I was reminded of a remark of Willa Cather’s, that you can’t paint sunlight, you can only paint what it does with shadows on the wall. If you examine a life, as Socrates has been so tediously advising us to do for so many centuries, do you really examine a life? Or do you examine

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Anguissette

September 21, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“There was no pleasure in this, at least not in the way that anyone but an anguissette would understand it. Pain strung my body like a plucked harpstring and behind closed eyes my vision was washed in red. I was in it and of it; at once the taut, quivering string and the high, sustained

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The Soul Eating Monster Called Anger

September 20, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“Of the Seven Deadly Sins, anger is possibly the most fun. To lick your wounds, to smack your lips over grievances long past, to roll over your tongue the prospect of bitter confrontations still to come, to savor to the last toothsome morsel of both the pain you are given and the pain you are

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Lies, Deceptions and the Perceptive Person

September 19, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“False words are not only evil in themselves, but they infect the soul with evil” ~Plato Well ain’t that the truth. I got lied to the other day. Those who know me know that lying is one of very few things I actually HATE; one of very few things that will infect my soul with

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Ode to a Strong Man

September 15, 2005 By In BDSM 1 Comment

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond belief. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? Your playing small does not

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Reflections on the Ideal Body, Body Image, Men and Life

September 12, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

Today the ideal body is… odd. The women you see in fashion magazines are stick thin with no real curves. Icky but realistic. If a girl is that thin she’s not going to have many curves. Yet… All the movie stars and famous people are just as thin, sickly so (to me) and still manage

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Poem

September 12, 2005 By In BDSM 1 Comment

Read this in another blog the other day and fell in love – with the poem – and with Taylor all over again. Reminded me so much of how I felt when we first got together…. what is this thing inside me that yearns, burns when i am near youwhat is this thing that shakes

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Duality…

September 9, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“There were always in me two women at least ;One woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning,and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions – because they were weakness, helplessness, despair – and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.”~Anais

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Salvation…

September 8, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“You know, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation… and that is loving. Well, then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. It is only your aversion that hurts, nothing else.”~Herman Hesse Don’t know why I chose this quote tonight. I

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Neurotic…

September 7, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“I disregard the proportions, the measures, the tempo of the ordinary world. I refuse to live in the ordinary world as ordinary women. To enter ordinary relationships. I want ecstasy. I am neurotic — in the sense that I live in my world. I will not adjust myself to the world. I am adjusted to

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What women say… what men hear

September 7, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

Taylor and I have done a lot of talking about this subject and, unbelievably, we STILL have problems with it. I’m the type to just blurt out what I’m feeling, often forgetting it sounds like blame or judgement on someone else. In my relationship I pretty much expect my Dude to KNOW me well enough,

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Quote…

September 5, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

The personal, if it is deep enough, becomes universal, mythical, symbolic” ~Anais Nin Now if that doesn’t explain the blogging craze…

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A wee rant…

September 5, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

So Taylor and I are on the Board of Directors for MARC (Milwaukee Alternative Resource Center) – which is a relatively new BDSM group in the Milwaukee area. We started out about a year and a half ago as a bunch of people who wanted to get something different going, have only been an actual

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BDSM – D/s – Kink – Swinging

September 4, 2005 By In BDSM 1 Comment

So, yeah… Always an issue around here. The BDSM community in Milwaukee is continually growning – and as it grows it becomes more and more diverse. You’ve got the hard core D/s-M/s folks who have been around a long time and feel pretty strongly that their way is the only way. You’ve got the BDSM

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Courage…

September 2, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

“It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before… to test your limits… to break through barriers. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom” ~Anais Nin Courage… For all my strength I

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A quote

September 1, 2005 By In BDSM No Comment

” I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t

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