My facebook status reads “This being sick thing? It’s starting to suck ass. All week? Seriously? Fuck you, sick.”

So I get to do a stint as a dispatcher this weekend.
Uh.  Yeah.
Some of you may remember when Taylor and I did roadside assistance for a living.  We’re still fairly close to the folks who own the company and they have a big family wedding this weekend so…
Taylor’s going to run service calls and I’m [...]

I’m knocked out, I’ve never felt so physically and mentally exhausted, I’m quite stupid with it and long only for bed; but I am happy… (Claude Monet)
And that about describes my winter thus far.

“Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts.” ~Penelope Sweet
So I woke up this morning bawling like a baby, ready to crawl into a hole and just die.
Don’t know what’s with me lately. I’ve never been depressed before but I’m starting to think that I am SERIOUSLY depressed now. (Yeah, I’ve been [...]

So I’m supposed to be all happy and shit. I mean… the Dude I love just asked me to marry him, Christmas is coming – which is my very favorite time of year, our financial situation is looking up – despite some big debts… and here I sit, stuck in the middle of a bunch [...]

Waitin’, waitin’, waitin’.
Waitin’ to hear about that house. Waitin’ to pack cuz I don’t know where or when we’re movin’. Waitin’ to get my car fixed so I can get outta jail now and again. Waitin’ on the damned child support people to get their heads out of their asses.
I swear, I have absolutely no [...]

Noon and I’ve got all my “chores” done. I could dust, I could mop the floor, I could do something with the bathroom but I’m entirely loathe to do anything extra when it’s so cluttered in here you barely notice anyway. And, besides, with a move in the future, there doesn’t seem to be much [...]

“They say that blood is thicker than water. Maybe that’s why we battle our own with more energy and gusto than we would ever expend on strangers” ~ David Assael, Northern Exposure
So, yeah…I’m on this family kick lately. Lol. Surprise surprise! Mine has become extended, my dad isn’t doing so well, my baby brother just [...]

“People drain me, even the closest of friends, and I find loneliness to be the best state in the union to live in.” ~Margaret Cho, weblog
I have had one room-mate and been married twice. Until I met Taylor I truly felt I was incapable of living with anyone other than my son. But Taylor and [...]

“It’s all right for a woman to be, above all, human. I am a woman first of all” ~Anais Nin
Some days I feel like I’m not allowed to be a human, much less a woman. I’m not allowed to be bitchy, crabby, snappish – or I pay for it with triple what I dished out.
And [...]

“I was crazy once, they put me in a padded room, it was hot, hot like summer, summer? i hate summer, i like spring, spring? i died in spring, and they put me in the soft soft ground, there were worms, worms? worms drive me crazy, crazy? i was crazy once…..”Thought that was fitting, as [...]