…some more.
Blah.
So I saw the general surgeon about the lump. She says… it’s a lump in the fatty tissue. No idea what it is. It just barely shows up on the CT scan and it hasn’t grown since I first noticed it like a year ago so she wants to either see me again in six months after another CT or, if they’re going to do any surgury over my female issues, she’ll join in that surgery and take it out then for biopsy.
The colposcopy was Monday and they did find abnormal cells. Took biopsies from three different areas of my cervix and I see that dude again on Nov 10th to find out what the verdict is. He did say it was good news that they hadn’t found anything abnormal in my ultrasound or the endometrial biopsy and dependent upon what the colposcopy results are we may be able to do endometrial ablation to help my heavy, painful bleeding but, again, it’s wait and see.
Life, otherwise, is peachy. Taylor’s been sweet and understanding and supportive despite rarely getting laid and my sudden lack of interest in anything kinky.
I’m just kind of in a holding pattern of waiting. Trying not to freak out and assume the worst though I”m emotional as hell and just kinda depressed.
My thyroid medication isn’t doing a damned thing yet. In fact, my skin is about to slough completely off it’s so dry and I’m still hella tired and I GAINED five pounds in two weeks. Meh. Gonna go for more labs in a week or so and see the doc about that hopefully the same day I see the other dude about my colposcopy results. I think the dosage of levothyroxin she’s giving me (25mcg) is just too low and we need to up it.
That’s about it.
Sorry I haven’t been around much. Every time something sparks a thought I want to write about it’s not taking much effort for me to… eh… do something else instead. I’m just feelin’ blah, I guess, but I wanted to update y’all.
Thanks, guys, for all the comments and private emails and messages on Fetlife. I really, really appreciate them, even if I don’t always respond like I should.
xoxo
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you just hang in there……. and know there’s a whole bunch of us cheering you on…….
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I’m so happy to see you’re still about! *huglies* If I could, I’d send you chocolate. Chocolate helps. Or something. I think chocolate helps world peace. And cancer. And breastfeeding. And rare diseases that are genetic. The world needs more chocolate.
Ehum. Anyway. I’m just glad to see a “I’m alive”-post. You don’t have to do long, explaining posts, a simple “Alive and kicking” or “fuck, this sucks” works for me.
*some more huglies*
I know the waiting must be awful. Hang in there with those hypothyroid meds, they can take up to 2 months or so to take a noticeable effect. But they WILL work eventually, they’re just slow little bastards.
Hon, if I were close enough I wouldn’t even take you chocolate. I’d bring you BOOZE! Yep, that’s right I say you should pull a good drunk & unwind yourself.
I’m not much of a good “huggles” type of friend. But I do mix a good drink & keep the refills coming.
levothyroxin rocks. it saved my life. i’m only being slightly over dramatic. it *does* take some time to kick in, and then you’ll spend some time thinking the return of energy is an anomaly, and it’ll take time for your brain to “get it”. love and luck fer all your stuff.
*snickers at Sinn*
I tried that last weekend. I drank and drank and fuck me if I couldn’t even catch a buzz. Fuckin’ shit.
BTDT. That tells me you are wound tighter than a top. It takes committment to achieve a good drunk when you’re that way, but it can be done. Trust me. I’m a pro. I belieeeeve in you!
Re: dry skin Try washing with oil. I do the PTA with soap, then the rest of my body I use a scrubbie and Vaseline body oil. Rinse and pat dry. Baby butt soft. Really helps.
im glad you jumped on to leave an update sweetie… im sending you lots and lots of warm tight hugs and keeping you in my thoughts…
((((((((((((((carrie ann))))))))))))))
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*hugs*
I’m going to echo what the others said about levothyroxin taking some time to kick in. And, yes, it’s very possible that they’ll need to up dosages, I think it took 6 months to a year to get mine right and mine was even expected! But being hyperthyroid is just as unfun as being hypothyroid (I have experience with both).
Good luck!
Von: Try using only coldpressed oil, pure oil. And a little soap for your pits. It’s… incredible. Vaseline oil has probably parraffinum or some other mineral oil in it (which personally I avoid). I love my skin now.
And srlsy? Booze? Booze’s got nothing on chocolate! … or… ehm… I wouldn’t know, actually. In my 20 years, I’ve never had booze. I’m sticking with all-ailments-curing chocolate. <3
Now see Sinn. Perfect reason for you to come up this way. We need to “help” Carrie tie one on. I’ll be the DD since I can’t hardly choke down a single drink these days. I’ll take the pictures and film the videos (and post them online) and it’ll be a hoot and junk. *nods*
Hmmm….
Yanno…
I’d make an ass of myself and LET YOU FILM IT if I could have the two of ya here for a weekend. :)
And I’m with ya other girls on the oil thing. I can’t use mineral oil based things but I’m thinking I should go back to my Neutrogena Sesame Oil stuff for a bit. Good thinkin’! I’d forgotten I used to use it and had great results. (Normally I don’t need any of that stuff cuz my skin used to be oily but the last couple years, with what turns out to be this thyroid issue, I’ve been a lizard)
Thanks – much, much thanks – to everyone else for thinkin’ of me. Let’s all keep our fingers crossed that the next appt is good news. :)
Man, I might even brave the snow for that.
The three of us on film… hmmm…. I don’t even know if they have a rating for that. Would it be porn? A comedy? A porn spoof?
I don’t care what category, rating or price, if you three are in a movie, *I’m* getting it. *wide grin*
sending you lots of hugs… try not to get too anxious. fingers crossed everything will be fine.
t. x