Mi Vida Loca

“I was crazy once, they put me in a padded room, it was hot, hot like summer, summer? i hate summer, i like spring, spring? i died in spring, and they put me in the soft soft ground, there were worms, worms? worms drive me crazy, crazy? i was crazy once…..”

Thought that was fitting, as crazy as my life is right now.

Got a twelve year old son who is amazing me with how well he’s seemingly adjusted to Middle School and with the sudden phone conversations with friends and talk of girlfriends. I’m just waiting for all that to come tumbling around my head.

Got some horrid stress between Taylor and I at times over his mom moving back here – The individual stress we’re both feeling over it just seems to have us snapping at each other sometimes.

There is a ton to be done to get the apartment ready for her to move in for a few weeks and I’m not exactly feeling very inspired to get it done. I know I have to but I guess I sort of resent it – and I’m worried – and the whole situation just sucks…

So, yeah, I’m feeling a little bit nuts and out of whack. I try not to think about it overly much but it’s only three days til we go to get her so there isn’t TIME to be avoiding it. And I know it’s going to cause even more stress once she’s actually here.

We’ve already got some money issues going on. At least some of those might be resolved soon – I should get my income back once Sandi is back – but we’re still pretty behind in stuff and I don’t know what to do and I can’t holler at Taylor cuz he tries really hard to get work and just can’t a lot of times and we don’t have a car for me to go out applying for jobs and I don’t even know what we’re gonna do with Sandi once she’s here without a car to get her anywhere. *sigh*

And all of this just leaves me wrapped tighter than a drum. (Is that the proper saying?)

I need like three grand to get all our bills straightened out and the cars running and I just don’t see that happening anytime soon. If only there really was a tooth fairy, eh? Or at least a way to give Taylor a clean record so he could get a normal job.

Maybe we should both go back to school….