I don’t really do resolutions, per se. I set goals. Ponder things I’d like to do or change. Resolutions seem too firm and, despite being all firm and solid and “resolute” no one seems to keep them – myself included. Goals, on the other hand, are sorta squishy. Nothing that has to be done, so you don’t beat yourself up when you fail. And we all fail at times, yanno? Introspection and self analysis are good. Thinking about ways to change or improve yourself or your life is good. Nice and squishy, with lots of room to rearrange. We can’t see the future so being able to rearrange our goals as circumstances change or we change is a good thing.
This year I’d like to:
- Lose a few pounds. I’m up about 18 damn pounds since Taylor moved in and I’m not real happy about it. Being happy tends to do that to me but I need to fight the evils of content. Lol. I’ve always been up and down with my weight so this shouldn’t be too hard – except I’m getting older and it’s not quite as easy as it was when I was young.
- Spend more time with friends just because I want to, not because some group function obligates me to. I’d like to be a better friend. I’m a bit standoffish at times and it makes me feel bad when my friends are afraid to call or stop by cuz they don’t want to bother me. I love my friends and I’m grateful that I have them – immensely grateful that they accept me for just who I am – so I need to make sure I’m not making them feel unwelcome or unwanted or uncared about. There’s a person or two that I only know from online that I’m determined to meet this year, too. I’ve come to realize that when I really care about someone I want to be able to give them a damned hug – and it bothers me that there are folks out there who I care about but have never hugged. (Bite me if that’s mushy. Sometimes I am. :) Mushy, that is. )
- Give my son a little more time and attention. He’s getting older and, pretty soon, he’s not going to want much mom time. I need to get what I can before he’s too “teen” to want to be with mom.
- Get organized. My house is a wreck and I’ve been doing a piss poor job of keeping it up. Mostly because we’re so crowded and it’s hard to keep the clutter and mess down, but also because when there’s so little room and so few options for me I tend to get apathetic.
- Keep a firm grip on the budget, finances and money situation. Lots to do this year – a wedding, a move, a motorcycle to buy – and it’s going to be hard if we don’t really watch our unnecessary expenditures.
I’m sure there’s more but I’m losing concentration here. :) The house is getting busy, my focus is shot…
Time to go.