So I log in to FetLife today – which I no longer do each and every day cuz I’m flippin’ busy, man – and the first things I see on my front page? “People who think dog rape is a-ok” and “Another day, another shoot at Kink”. Wandering over to my groups I found “Is

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Well, I seem to be getting over my case of the sads.  Did much talking with the kid and with Taylor and we resolved quite a few things and, in general, felt better for having talked so life is good. I also got my new camera yesterday.  A new camera goes a long way toward

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(Were you humming along with the title?  I was.) Taylor and I were talkin’ this morning.  I was telling him about a blog I read and how I used to get all insecure when I read it, like I wasn’t doing it as “right” as this person was.  How even when they had struggles it

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Not a whole lot going on over here. It’s Spring so it’s raining and gloomy far more often than it’s sunny and bright.  And to think I used to like Spring best.  Is it me or has it changed?  May feels more like March used to.  *le sigh* Remind me to take my vitamin D

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So I was sitting here, all curled up with some coffee and a book, when it hit me.  I’d just posted on Twitter about being old, boring and comfy.  And I am.  Perhaps too much so. I don’t have any anxiety or spirit or even much anger these days.  I’m just settled and contented and

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I am so tired and yet I can’t sleep.  Or maybe I just don’t want to go to bed yet since Taylor shows no signs of being tired.  Or maybe my brain just won’t shut down for the night. Regardless, it’s two in the morning and I just made a cup of coffee and sugared

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Yeah. Regarding my post yesterday. Did y’all know I’m getting seriously slammed over at Blood, Sweat, Tears?  (Go ahead, check it out. I know you’re gonna.) It’s a shame, too, cuz the girl liked me right up until yesterday. Seems the fact that I’d send Teen to his dad rather than leave if shit got

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A few months back kaya talked about the color blue.  Do y’all remember that blog?  C’mon, I know you all read her.  Anyhow.  I totally “got” that post because it happened in my life, too. Once upon a time my favorite color was red.  Deep, blood red. I had a red velvet skirt and a

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“Life is so constructed that an event does not, cannot, will not, match the expectation.” ~Charlotte Bronte I don’t feel that we should… expect nothing. Or settle for less than we deserve. I do however feel we should… stop expecting people to be more than they are. Stop expecting events in our lives to match

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Old age, I decided,is a gift.I am now, probablyfor the first time in my life,the person I have alwayswanted to be.Oh, not my body!I sometimes despairover my body …the wrinkles,the baggy eyes,and the sagging butt. And often I am taken abackby that old person thatlives in my mirror,but I don’t agonize overthose things for long.

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I don’t really do resolutions, per se. I set goals. Ponder things I’d like to do or change. Resolutions seem too firm and, despite being all firm and solid and “resolute” no one seems to keep them – myself included. Goals, on the other hand, are sorta squishy. Nothing that has to be done, so

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(Wrote this a few days ago on the ibook and have just now gotten around to plugging it in to the modem to post it) So, lately, I’ve been giving a lot of thought to expectations – just in general, really, but specifically the expectations we have of others. Because, face it, we all have

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“For it is mutual trust, even more than mutual interest, that holds human associations together. Our friends seldom profit us but they make us feel safe….” ~H.L. MenckenIf I haven’t said it enough lately…I have some really, really great friends.I”ve been wary, for a long time, of creating actual friendships.I lost all mine in my

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