Kaya wrote a post today that has me thinking. (She actually wrote a couple posts this week that have me thinking.  Sitting down to write my thoughts just ain’t been happening – but the thoughts are there none-the-less.) She followed up on her blog post with a FetLife post, as well. Curious? I’ll go make

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I”m not much of a fan of morning sex. Don’t get me wrong.  Every time we have morning sex, I’m in heaven all day.  I just loahte waking up.  I don’t wake up well.  Someone touching me when I’m waking up makes me want to kill them; stab them right thru the eye with the

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Taylor is thiiiiiiiiis close to having the bike put back together and running for the season and, guess what? They’re forcasting snow for Saturday and Tuesday.   Whiskey Tango Foxtrot????? Wisconsin sometimes sucks ass. ——————————- I told Taylor to shut up this morning and had a damned fit over absolutely nothing. There are times I

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Bunch of hooplah over on FetLife.  What’s new, right?   I’m extremely stressed out over the constant slavier-than-thou bullshit I see all over the place. I’m not a fucking slave, god damn it.  I don’t have to behave the way you do, the way the folks in Laura Antoniou’s books do or the way Master Meatmeister

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It’s odd. Taylor and I are together almost 24/7 in the winter.  Work is dependant upon the weather and, while the hours are long and hard when there is work, there’s not a whole lot of work. So not only are we in each other’s laps day in and day out but we’re usually even

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So Coyote’s Kitten wanted to know how long Taylor and I have been engaged and if we have a date set. How sad is it that I had to look thru my old Yahoo 360° blog to find the answer? Lol. We got engaged in November of 2005.   These are the rings he bought

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I love Taylor. I love where we are. I love that we’ve been together so long. I love the depth and security and connection, the knowing each other so damned well. But sometimes… I get crush envy. I think I’d like to feel, just for one day, those feelings I felt on our first day

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The new place; especially since I could make it look the same but be my own.  Mine, mine, mine! Taylor for letting me do it even though it wasn’t really in our budget at the moment. A Small Orange for being so cheap and full of good support!  Thinking about changing?  You can enter LookingUp

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Our anniversary is coming up.  We’ve known each other eleven years.  We’re going into our eighth spring together. One thing that’s always there, no matter the other issues, is love. Love and the special connection we’ve shared from the very beginning.  From the first moment, the first meeting of eyes, the first breath.     

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“ The  fall of snow is not only an event, it is a magical event. You go to bed in one kind of a world and wake up in another quite different, and if this is not enchantment then where is it to be found?  ~J.B. Priestley   I love snow. I love sweaters and

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I love Sundays. Sundays are our “nothing” days.  We lounge around in jammies and do as little as possible. Sunday’s in the winter are even better cuz it’s cozy and warm in the house and blustery outside and I feel, more so than any other time, the tight knit closeness of our family. Today the

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The six year anniversary of Taylor and I meeting for the first time is coming up pretty soon. Early in February, actually. We’d known each other years and years online but rarely talked. He used to tell me “one of these days, sin”. (That was my screen name back then. Submissively_sinful. Most people called me

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“It is admirable for a man to take his son fishing, but there is a special place in heaven for the father who takes his daughter shopping.” – John Sinor I’m not too sure about that. After all, MY Dad used to grope the mannequins at Sears when he took me shopping. He’d check for

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“If you have only one smile in you, give it to the people you love. Don’t be surly at home, then go out in the street and start grinning ‘Good morning’ at total strangers.”~Maya Angelou What a quote, eh? I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. Probably because Taylor and I work together so

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Old age, I decided,is a gift.I am now, probablyfor the first time in my life,the person I have alwayswanted to be.Oh, not my body!I sometimes despairover my body …the wrinkles,the baggy eyes,and the sagging butt. And often I am taken abackby that old person thatlives in my mirror,but I don’t agonize overthose things for long.

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“Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life; and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own

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“A leaf fluttered in through the window this morning, as if supported by the rays of the sun, a bird settled on the fire escape, joy in the task of coffee, joy accompanied me as I walked.” ~Anais Nin I touched on this in my 360° blog but thought it deserved a bit more attention…

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Well…It’s that time of year again.Cold outside, everything frozen, people rushing from their cars to wherever they need to go…The longest day of the year over and the promise of more light just ahead of us…Christmas and my birthday right around the corner…A new year to begin soon… And life is really good.Taylor’s workin’ steady

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” A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person.”~Mignon McLaughlin Still a little dumbfounded by the idea that I’m going to be getting married again.Thirty six years old, a twelve year old son, two failed marriages behind me… and I’m going to try it again. Why, you ask?Because I’ve

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The Journeyby Mary Oliver One day you finally knewwhat you had to do, and began,though the voices around youkept shoutingtheir bad advice –though the whole housebegan to trembleand you felt the old tug at your ankles.“Mend my life!”each voice cried.But you didn’t stop.You knew what you had to do,though the wind priedwith its stiff fingersat

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So I’m supposed to be all happy and shit. I mean… the Dude I love just asked me to marry him, Christmas is coming – which is my very favorite time of year, our financial situation is looking up – despite some big debts… and here I sit, stuck in the middle of a bunch

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“It is not wealth one asks for, but just enough to preserve one’s dignity, to work unhampered, to be generous, frank and independent.” ~ W. Somerset Maugham , ‘Of Human Bondage’, 1915 I think I’ve used this quote before but I reread it today and it sure did hit home. Nothing but troubles lately –

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Haven’t had much time for writing lately. Too busy going temporarily insane. But that’s ok. “People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built.” ~Eleanor Roosevelt, My Day My character must, certainly, be growin’ like I have twenty masons workin’ on it. :) Seriously, though… Life has

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“Learning to live in the present moment is part of the path of joy.”~Sarah Ban Breathnach I believe this.Living in the past is something far too many people do. You cannot grow if you like your past you more than the present. What sort of life can you have if what has been is always

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