Taylor is thiiiiiiiiis close to having the bike put back together and running for the season and, guess what? They’re forcasting snow for Saturday and Tuesday.   Whiskey Tango Foxtrot????? Wisconsin sometimes sucks ass. ——————————- I told Taylor to shut up this morning and had a damned fit over absolutely nothing. There are times I

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…Boom boom boom. ____________________________________ I got this thing in the mail today.  A pamphlet and coupon thing from Glade.  For their new… Ahem… Fragrance Collection. Cuz, you know, the rest of their stuff doesn’t have fragrance or anything. *blinkblink* What is with the people running advertising and marketing these days?  Have you seen that t.v. commercial

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Bunch of hooplah over on FetLife.  What’s new, right?   I’m extremely stressed out over the constant slavier-than-thou bullshit I see all over the place. I’m not a fucking slave, god damn it.  I don’t have to behave the way you do, the way the folks in Laura Antoniou’s books do or the way Master Meatmeister

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I have no idea what happened to me today.  I had such a good day yesterday and today I woke up a wreck. Crying. I’ve cried over corned beef and cabbage, safewords, Taylor’s goatee… It’s nuts. I think it might be a hormonal thing.  I’m sort of spotting (not that most of you care) and, since

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It’s odd. Taylor and I are together almost 24/7 in the winter.  Work is dependant upon the weather and, while the hours are long and hard when there is work, there’s not a whole lot of work. So not only are we in each other’s laps day in and day out but we’re usually even

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So this dying of death cold/flu/coughing/fever thing that’s taken over my house?  It really sucks.  Taylor is so sick he’s, basically, slept for three days straight.  He’s up a few hours in the middle of the night/early morning and that’s about it.  He’s literally sleeping 20 hours a day. I’m not feeling so great myself

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This morning found me screaming, screeching, whining and crying at Taylor about how tired I am of nobody giving a shit about me. I sounded like a teenage drama queen. I don’t know if it’s cuz I’m sick and have been varying degrees of sick for two weeks and have been taking care of a

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I love Taylor. I love where we are. I love that we’ve been together so long. I love the depth and security and connection, the knowing each other so damned well. But sometimes… I get crush envy. I think I’d like to feel, just for one day, those feelings I felt on our first day

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I’ve been ranting for years about the safety police when it comes to BDSM.  I’ve long been a proponent of being aware of the risk and making your own decisions; of not sticking your nose in and telling other people what they “must” do in order to be safe. I’m really starting to get aggravated by the

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Not sure what the hell happened but I just spent the past two days with a major case of hives. They started Friday night on my back.  By Saturday morning my poor butt was covered in them. I spent nearly all day Saturday and Sunday in bed, dosed up on Benadryl.  They spread to my

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So. You know that fantasy so many of us have about being beaten (or spanked), fucked and walked away from like it was nothing more than a coffee break?  Like we’re just a pocket pussy, a toy to get him off and when he’s done we may as well not exist?  Or something of that

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1) I have over two hundred blogs in my feed reader.  Closer to two fifty. I find myself skimming, wheeling my mouse over them too damned fast to really even judge if something is worth reading. I know I have to weed some of them out but, oh my gods, that’s a lot of work.

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So I was sitting here, all curled up with some coffee and a book, when it hit me.  I’d just posted on Twitter about being old, boring and comfy.  And I am.  Perhaps too much so. I don’t have any anxiety or spirit or even much anger these days.  I’m just settled and contented and

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I am so tired and yet I can’t sleep.  Or maybe I just don’t want to go to bed yet since Taylor shows no signs of being tired.  Or maybe my brain just won’t shut down for the night. Regardless, it’s two in the morning and I just made a cup of coffee and sugared

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So we went to our monthly playparty/gathering thingy the other night.  First one since September.  (We missed October and they’re not held in November and December due to Holidays) It was pretty great to see everyone again, that’s for sure! While there, Taylor and I didn’t actually "play".  Instead, I got my first taste of

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Meh.  Winter aggravates me sometimes. It’s been freezing, awful cold around here the past week or so.  I’m talking frigid.  Fifteen below with thirty five below windchills some nights. Which means we’re all sort of stuck in the house and bored out of our skulls.  It means the kid is around constantly and sex is

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I rarely let online shit get to me. I may get passionate in my responses but I rarely get truly pissed off. The past two days I let myself get genuinely, steam-coming-from-my-ears, clenched fisted PISSED.   Why, you ask?   At this point I’ve realized it’s because I’ve been being told my opinion isn’t valid. 

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Lots of posts over on FetLife today about Ownership vs Mastery. Personally I tend to use the words interchangeably.  Sort of.  I don’t use Master or slave in reference to me and Taylor but I do view the two dynamics (Owner/property and Master/slave) as being on the same level. And before anyone gets in a

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So while I’ve been quiet as hell around here I’ve been oddly active in Fetlife groups.  Probably because I can discuss and debate stuff over there without it being personal.  Here it’s all pretty personal and I’ve been avoiding that lately. Now that things are settling down in the health area, though, I’ve been pondering

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…some more.  Blah.  So I saw the general surgeon about the lump.  She says…  it’s a lump in the fatty tissue.  No idea what it is.  It just barely shows up on the CT scan and it hasn’t grown since I first noticed it like a year ago so she wants to either see me

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The CT scan came back and they said…  I have a lump in my lower abdomen. Yeah.  I’ve been feeling that for about a year.   They can’t say what it is, just that it’s in the fatty tissue.  Nothing else appears to be wrong with me that they can see, though the pelvic/female stuff

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“Where ya been?” I know.  I’ve been quiet.  Lots going on and nothing going on, all at the same time. Mostly I’ve just been not in the mood to write about shit.  You know when you don’t really want to talk about what’s going on in your life but can’t find any trivial or non

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So I was editing video today and I got to thinking… Knives (or, more precisely, knife play with Taylor) scare the shit out of me. Not just sometimes. Every. Fucking. Time. He can take a scalpel to me. Cut lovely designs in me. It relaxes me to a wonderful, lethargic state. But bring out a

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The question was asked on a FetLife group today “What skills (attitudes, attributes) does it take to effectively submit?” My brain stumbled for a minute and the only thing I could come up with was that it doesn’t necessarily take any skills to submit, just the desire to do so. For me, this is true.

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Much as I complain and bitch about some of the people over there I have to admit I really like FetLife.  Not so much because I’m making bestest friends or learning a whole lot of new stuff – though I have gotten to talk to some really cool people and readers from here who have

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