So my stress level lately is off the fucking charts.

It’s hard to explain why, hard to pinpoint any one thing as it all seems to build up.

Most days, I can’t even tell if the thing I’m feeling stressed about is actually what I am stressed about. You know what I mean?  Like you burn the chicken and get all emotional and stressed out and it’s not really the chicken burning but work that got you to that point and the chicken was just the straw.  Or the kid has been irking you all week and is making you want to scream but it’s not really the kid, it’s money or your health or whatever. An underlying cause.

I’m pretty sure that’s the case.

In fact, I’m pretty sure I just need a vacation. I haven’t had more than a three day weekend since I started my job 18 months ago so I think I’m just feeling burned out and in need of some down time.

And so…

We’re taking a vacation.

We’re going to have a 5 day getaway for the New Years weekend, probably from Thursday thru Tuesday, at a resort on the Door County peninsula.

Spa in the room, fancy robes and slippers, a fireplace, a view of the hopefully snowed over and frozen lake and woods and four full days to just chill out and enjoy each other and some peace.

Sounds like a slice of heaven, yes?

I need it. Desperately. Some time away with no pressures, no hurry, no dogs, no kid, no schedules. Just. Time.

I guess that’s the biggest issue. Time.  It always seems to be slipping away, thru my fingers like quicksilver, never enough of it to refocus and settle down after all the “must do” things are done.  And if I do take down time, I come back to shit upon shit upon shit piled up all over the house and I have guilt for the piles of laundry and mounds of dishes and unswept floor and…

You get the idea.  I think we all have the same issues these days, especially those of us who work and have kids and once you  add in the D/s relationship dynamic you find yourself stretched painfully thin if you don’t…  take time.

Speaking of which I have an empty house at the moment, other than the pets, so I should take some.  Last night I had a long bath, complete with wine and bath salts and candles and a book and I do believe that is exactly what I need again tonight.

Just a tiny sliver of time.