Unresolved Quandary
Good goddess. I’ve had this thing open all day, intending to write something, and I’ve just been all preoccupied with other stuff.
I was over at Del.icio.us adding links when I realized more than half my damned links to people were FEED links instead of SITE links. So I had to edit two hundred or so links. What a pain.
I actually have something I want to write about but it’s dinner time and the Teen is home and I’m distracted so I’ll have to come back to it.
Basically, Taylor asked a question in our FetLife group yesterday that has me in sort of a quandary. Basically he asked what would you (as property) do if commanded (by your Owner) to suck another man’s dick. You can read the actual question here. It had all sorts of qualifiers like you know the man and the place is appropriate and whatnot.
I instantly responded with a bad gut reaction and it’s got me thinking hard, trying to figure out my reaction and in what circumstances it might be different.
But, like I said, I”m too distracted at the moment to get the thoughts out of the tangled mess in my head.
So. I’ll come back to it and if I don’t, someone remind me. In the meantime…
What do y’all think?
I’m guessing most of the answers were along the lines of ‘if my Master told me to do it I would do it and enjoy pleasing him’
That doesn’t apply in our relationship. He would never ask me. He wouldnt want me doing that to another man and I dont want to so I guess it works for us. There are certain things we might do with others but that isn’t one.
My ex wanted me to. And I did, because by doing it it meant he could swing with the guys partner. I hated it. I hated him for making me do it. I guess tho the whole ‘being given away thing’ has never been a fantasy of mine and so i’m pleased my current Dom doesn’t desire it.
As you know, I’ve done it. I do it. And I haven’t always responded with grace and submission. There have been a couple of ugly scenes around it.
And my gut reaction to it — when I just think about it — it’s gut wrench & nausea & tears & please nononono. But… it’s not going to go away. He gets my brain where he wants it to be, & then he does what he wants.
But the thought of M taking another slave, seriously playing with someone else, fucking someone else. OMFG it sends me over the edge. I c.a.n. n.o.t. deal. On the other hand, I’ve been doing this long enough to know that if that was something he was into, he’d get my brain where he wanted it to be, & then he’d do what he wanted. I can admit that intellectually, even while the very thought makes me want to throw up.