Winter

Meh.  Winter aggravates me sometimes.

It’s been freezing, awful cold around here the past week or so.  I’m talking frigid.  Fifteen below with thirty five below windchills some nights.

Which means we’re all sort of stuck in the house and bored out of our skulls.  It means the kid is around constantly and sex is quick and quiet and play is non-existent.

It means we’re all snapping at each other and even the dogs are acting like bone heads. 

The only actual pain I’ve gotten lately (besides the pain in the ass of bored boys and dogs) was an ass fuck the other night that had me wanting to either punch Taylor in the nose or safeword and run away.

Why do they DO that thing where they pull their dick all the way out and put it back in over and over and over and over and over again when your ass is already sore and tender? Wtf is with that????

Of course I know.  The praise I got for crying let me know without a doubt that he was trying to make it hurt.  But, god damn it, it was not a good hurt.

And.  Yanno.  It’s all about the hurt I want, right?

*insert eye roll here*

My head is just in a crappy place lately, I guess.  I don’t really care if we fuck, don’t really care if we play, would mostly just be happy with some cuddles.

Taylor isn’t much of a cuddler, though.  If he cuddles, sex is going to follow.  And when the sex is done he’s done cuddling.  Normally I don’t mind at all cuz I’m not really a cuddley, touchy feely type, either.  But lately I’ve been craving it and so, of course, the fact that he doesn’t do it aggravates me.

Meh.

I really just can’t wait for spring.  To pull the bike out of storage, hop on the back, wrap my arms around him and just go.

We’ve got a party to go to next weekend, though.  I’m hoping some time with others, out of this blasted house, and some play will reset my head switch.   Sometimes that’s all it takes, yanno?  Just do it and all of a sudden you want to do it more and more and more and more.

At least that’s how it works for me. :P

Anyhow…  that’s life in a nutshell.  I know I’ve been scarce lately and I hope y’all forgive me.

xoxo